Enlightenment

Sweet, misty, musky, haze creeps warm through the window crack, caressing my icy cheek, luring me back.

Standing in the portal, faces lit by the rapid fire assault of heaven raining it’s fury of fiery streams from the sky as the earth quakes in the cacophony of the vacuum of it’s wake. Ghostly blues from by gone days drip down the stairs to be swallowed by the silver pellet percussion band playing outside.

I am aware of the moment, yet lost in the majesty of this earth, and the mystery that I would find my way to stand here in this space and time with you, understanding pouring down upon us.

My breath caught away in the wind rushing past, blowing my parking lot ocean into waves rippling up to my toes. Water black and glittering gold in the rain streaked street light one moment, the next a flash of an endless expanse of silver lined heavenly landscape. I fancy diving in to its undetermined depths when I feel your hand soft upon my weary, naked head.

Your caress sliding gently down to rest softly on the nape of my neck, warm, reassuring. My body falls limp at your touch and I am thankful to share this perfect moment with you as suddenly, I am not alone.

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Cup of Chaos

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What in God’s name can I do? I do not even know how to handle any more of this chaos. He just will not be reasoned with, his constant screaming lies and accusations while I work myself into the grave trying to fix his messes. I’m terrified every moment of what he is going to do next. Continue reading

Love and Stuff Like That

Last night, I fell asleep with my iPhone, cradled in my hand. I am not ashamed to admit it- this was not the first time. In fact, my smart phone has been my most consistent bed partner for a number of years. Most nights I drift off gently in its cool glow while reading- books, blogs, or how-to articles, writing- emails, texts, and snippets of my thoughts and dreams, researching- all things I have any interest in, or simply lulling me from my current consciousness with guided meditations, subliminal programming, and binaural beats. Continue reading