Love Heals

I feel as though I should have more to say, my thoughts and feelings are moving and changing so fast that I am having a hard time keeping up. The problem is, as much as I would like to say, I really don’t have time to say it. The flood turned our life upside down and I am still sifting through the chaos, trying to piece it back together even though the big one- Asbestos removal, has not even taken place. Not that I am ready for that. I have to pack up what is left of my library and sewing notions from the bookshelves in the living room. I just finished putting it all away in December. The promise of new paint and flooring is the only thing that is driving me. Continue reading

Thank You Isn’t Enough

I wonder if it’s you I meet in outer space
I wonder if I’ll ever get to see your face
Your silence feels as cold as these north winds on my heart
What do I have to do to play a part
  In your life
I know that people do what they must to survive
I’m sad for all your sorrow but glad you’re still alive
  You come back stronger
Every time you cross my path you leave me wanting more
I drink deeply of your water and lay naked on your shore
  In my dreams
The truth is that we make time for the things that we desire
I long to feel you next to me and linger by your fire
  In spite of what I say
Please forgive me if my attitude
Does not express my gratitude
  I’m indebted
You took some time to heal my soul when I’d lost my will to live
And now the more I find myself the more I want to give
  To you

The Ties That Bind

my clan

Last Saturday morning I put the children in my care into my car and drove 3 hours to Z’s mom’s house. (Yes, for those paying attention, that is technically my ex-mother-in-law, we shall call her “Mumsy”.) She reports to other that she is surprised that she could get along with me, I am surprised that people try to *not* get along with me. I love the woman, never any less for the war she fights within herself, but one cannot ignore that her prejudice can create some angsty situations.  Continue reading